I've been remiss in reading these posts. Alana, I would have left you a comment but by now you're several posts down, and I can't find you on the list to visit your website. Who are you?
Alana, sorry you're feeling so bad. Sorry I didn't read your post the day you posted it and respond right away with an attempt at a consoling note.
So here it is, belatedly: Be brave and hang in. Illness makes warriors of us all. You don't give details, so it's hard to say more. I hope you have good people in your life -- people who are there and supporting you right now when you need it most.